HPT results

HPT results

Okay…before even I started this blog, I’ve been writing about my day-to-day feelings and symptoms right from my LMP. So, here, I’m doing a ctrl+c and ctrl+v of those feelings…

Disappointed on Aug 15 2008

Well, my heart knows what I’m disappointed for or depressed for…Hmm, I know very well that this is my first try and C’mon dear u cannot expect result in first attempt itself!!! well, again…my mind thinks like this but my heart yearns for a ++++ in this first attempt itself.

Last week was a horrible wait for me. I was sure enuf that I’m PG this very first time and even started dreaming abt the baby. But, still I know its wat tooooo early to know about the result. So I waited patiently from sat 9th Aug until today 15th Aug. I was telling myself that I will do a HPT today,being Independence day & varalaksmi viratham, auspicious day and all. chumma i will have some reason to justify my action…But this morning, I was very anxious to do my HPT but it turned out to be a BFN  😦

I was pretty sure that I’m PG, as I read in so many forums and websites about the symptoms. And I felt that I have those or may be my brahmai I guess…Symptoms like frequent urination, more cm in the initial days like last week, bbs got bigger, hungry at odd times, nauseated feeling some times, AF cramps, bloating…Hmmm, life is beautiful for everybody. It lies in the hands of the individual, how beautiful they make it and handle it. And I think I’m in a hurry to make it beautiful…I need to be patient. hmmm

To mark it down, I Ovulated on Aug 5th or Aug 6th. So today is my 9 dpo and 24th day from my first day of last period. My next cycle is due on Mon Aug 18th or Tues Aug 19th.

All Smiley Smiley 🙂 on Aug 18 2008

Well, ahem… this title is pretty much contradictory to my earlier one,,,But I have all reasons to be all smiley 🙂 . Yes, I did HPT twice and got a faint second line. For all who say that its not as strong as the testing line, but still I see a line 🙂 . Whoaaaaaaaa it gives immense happiness to see those 2 lines actually. enna thavam seidhen – nu I wanna sing.

I was such a good girl and was patient not to do any more HPTs after I got BFN on Friday’s test. But the girl in me or rather new-mom-to-be-feeling in me, made me to buy some more tests. And my chweet DH bought 5 HPTs for me. As I was’nt sure enough of my results, I got them from $tree. I waited and waited every hour, ever minute, every second of one whole saturday to pass by. And come Sunday, I was getting lil impatient and wanted to test. So I tested on sunday evening around 6PM, waited for my urine sample to be as much as concentrated it can get (about 3.5 hrs) and did the HPT. Got a negative in it immediately and I was damn pissed. When I went down, I did’nt talk to DH or IL and was watching television and disasppointed and hurt deeply. No words to explain more you see…But after a while, I wanted to just lie down in the bed so went upstairs. I was in a rage of fury at the HPT and wanted to shatter it to pieces as I did for the Friday’s HPT 😛 . But to my surprise, I saw something else there. Although it was not a sharp dark line, I still see a line,,,WHAT????? a line?????? a faint-second-line?????? Still ITS A LINE!!!! Yipeeeeeeeeee, I couldn’t beleive my eyes. Called my DH immediately  and showed him and he said YES, there is a line indeed 🙂 . I immediately hugged him and cried, tears of happiness came down my cheeks. He hugged me and said ‘yes, we see a faint-line’. That was a moment of joy I cannot put into words, even though my inner-mind said ‘C’mon, its still a FAINT-LINE, I mean a FAINTTT LINE &  moreover  ur next periods is not due until Monday or tuesday’. STUPID INNERMIND,,, I HATE YOU…But i love u too 🙂

And again I waited waited waited for time to pass by. This is the 1st monday morning for which I’m eagerly waiting for…I dont remember whether I welcomed Monday morning this eagerly in past times…After all, today is the day which will be another important day & moment to remember. Correct? I did HPT with my FMU and again I see faint line, I ran out and grabbed my yday’s test. Yes, It is even more darker than the earlier test result. So……..it means I’m moving more towards +++++ result. Wowwwww, this feeling made my day 🙂

Now I cannot wait for 2 or 3 more days to check for a CLEAR ++++ test result 🙂

Yes, I’ve become HPT addictive 😛

Kinda worried on Aug 20 2008

I know its too early

I know line is a line

I know ‘C’mon gurl, you need to have some patience’

But still,,,My mind knows allllll these said above, but my heart still yearns for a BFP 🙂 . Again today’s FMU test gave a faint line, but it is deftly darker and fatter than the previous 2 tests I took on Sun, Aug 17th 6PM HPT and Mon, Aug 18th FMU HPT.

I’m now thinking when to use the remaining 2 of the 5 $$$ tree HPT’s

Jeez….on Aug 20, 2008

Yes, I should confirm whether I’m PG or not with a BFP using HPT. But I stealithy google’d for Due date caluclation & Gender of the baby. It turns out to be a BOY (I beleive its my dad’s re-birth to this world again!!!) and its due by Apr 28/29 2009 🙂

Whoaaaa, need to confirm my PG first!!!